God, I know I have deceived you, please forgive me.
Even though I love him, in your hands is where I want to be.
The thing you ask of me is not easy, this we both know.
Give me strength to carry on, give me courage to stand bold.
Everything I’ve done, I have blamed you for.
But please accept this desperate knocking at your door.
I know I have ashamed you and in your heart I hear a cry.
I do want to help others, please remove the plank from my eye.
I know that you are loving and that you forgive and forget.
Yet my heart still breaks in two, I have fallen into a pit.
Life can be so unfair or at least that way it seems.
God, I know I’m just a dot in this world, please don’t forget about me.
All I want is love, someone who is near that I can hold.
Yet, I feel like no one’s out there, I feel so alone.
I heard someone say “love is worth living for.”
I do not know love, so should I live no more?
I’m so sorry God, please know I still love you.
I guess I love him more though…now I’ve said the truth.
I’ve sold my soul for love, yet he does not love me.
I have deceived God and now I have been deceived.
But not by God of course, for He is loving and He cares.
And I know it hurts Him to see me crying here.
And so it shall go on, until the seraphs refuse to praise their King.
Everyone has somebody to love them, everyone but me.
